Today marks the 5th year since you’ve been gone. Life has gone on. Birthdays, anniversaries, babies, graduations, girlfriends, boyfriends, house renovations, big moves. You haven’t been a part of any of it. I miss you.
I turned 60 on my last birthday – you are still 56. You were always my older sister but now I’m older than you ever will be. I thought we would grow old together and take sister trips and do crazy things and laugh till we cried and peed our pants! This makes me smile thinking about it. When you laughed it always made me laugh. Most of the time I couldn’t understand why you thought something was so funny but it was so hilarious to watch you laugh so hard. I miss you.
Life has been lonely since you’ve been gone. I wonder what your life is like in heaven. I wonder if you can see us here. I wonder if you are watching what we’re up to. I wonder if it’s so glorious there that you haven’t thought of us here. I wonder.
Even though it’s been five years it’s still hard for me to believe that you’re gone. I can’t call you and get caught up with each others’ lives. I still have your number in my phone under my favorites. I don’t think I’ll ever be able to remove it. Sometimes I accidentally call you and I think how awesome that would be if you would answer. You were my favorite person to call. I miss you.
We started a little quirky tradition the day you went to heaven. We stopped at a 7-11 and got a slurpy. We didn’t know what to do next. Your fight to save your earthly life was over. It’s so strange how this drink can bring back so many memories. I haven’t missed a year. I love memories. I miss you.
I have survived. At one point I didn’t know if I could. I was stunned. I lost half of my identity. We were always Janet and Barbara or Billy and Bobby. I’ve had to learn how to do life without a sister. It hasn’t been easy. It’s been a long journey that I’m still on and probably will be for awhile yet. Thanks for being my sister. I miss you. I love you Janet Mae!
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Sweet memories
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